Talk:Through a Glass, Darkly/@comment-25538542-20141228200405/@comment-25337712-20141228233654

Emily probably hadn't realised at that point either. Some people know they are gay, bisexual etc. from a very young age but a lot of people don't realise until later on in life. The point when Emily probably realised that she was gay was when she had feelings for Alison that were beyond friendship.

Also she may not have been ready to deal with her sexuality and as Pipickle said, used Ben as her beard. By doing that she could figure out everything in her own time.